The World :)
I always feel like the world is spinning around me and I am just standing there watching it all happen. I just want someone to stop and watch it with me.
I am the happiest at
I am the happiest at night right before bed, or when I’m reading.
If I worked out more,
If I worked out more, I would probably feel better about myself and just physically feel better. I should probably try that.
Contentment is all I strive
going deep.
this is going to be a deep survey. you ready?
me: sure.
What is the best quality in the last boy you kissed?
me: besides the stranger i kissed, best quality in him is how he understands me
What are you doing tomorrow?
me: chilling at home then work
Have you met anybody that changed your life?
me: everyone i have ever met made an impact on my life.
Delete a year of your life, or start over in a new town?
me: start over in a new town.
Anyone you’re giving up on?
me: slowly myself.
Do you like little kids?
me: yeah, most.
Would you want to know the date of your death?
me: no, then i’ll anticipate it.
Would you rather have long or short hair?
me: LOONNNG!
Who pissed you off yesterday?
me: nobody :)
You love math right?
me: RIGHT!
Are you one of those people who are always cold?
me: i’m always hot.
Is your cell phone a touch screen phone?
me: no, i like my blackberry.
Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
me: i wish..
Who did you last cry in front of?
me: theodore. but i don’t think he noticed.
Has anyone ever drunk called/texted you?
me: yup.
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
me: my mom.
Angry at anyone?
me: always myself.
Is it hard to make you laugh?
me: heck no!
What if your boyfriend/ girlfriend went through your cellphone?
me: nothing to hide
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
me: i try to all the time but i wear my heart on my sleeve.
Do you hate the last female you had a converstion with?
me: no, shes my BEST friend
Where would you like to live other than where you are?
me: california, hawaii, greece, austrailia (yup)
Do you throw up gang signs?
me: on the occasion haha
What are you listening to right now?
me: smile- lilly allen
What’s your favorite color?
me: purple, turquoise, green, white, black
When did you meet the last male you texted?
me: i stalked him then met him at mcdonalds haha
Are you currently looking forward to anything?
me: thursday = jersey shore, friday = sleep at jena’s
Do you want to cut your hair?
me: i always cut my hair
Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
me: best friend, jordan
Do you have trust issues?
me: ya, i trust too easily, then never forgive
Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
me: male, tator
How’s your life lately?
me: stresssssfulll
Are you currently in a relationship?
me: no
Did you do anything productive today?
me: doc apt.
Have you ever kissed under water?
me: no
Is it ever too late to apologize?
me: yes, but its better if you do it anyways.
Would you ever get a tattoo?
me: mayybe
Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex?
me: i always answer dark, but always fall for guys with light
Kiss a girl whose name starts with a S?
me: not unless its seana.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
me: i cant predict the future.
What did you do for your last birthday?
me: i hung out with my friends. went on a scenic drive
Have you ever felt like someone of the opposite sex truly cared about you?
me: yes, and then that turned out to be a lie. (except my bros)
Do you hate the last person you kissed?
no: no, hes my friend now
Where were you last night at 11pm?
me: at ted’s house, watching awkward.
When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
me: last night, it was ted haha (can we talk about someone else?)
Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?
me: in a way, but i dont trust him very much… ps. i care about him WAY more
Do you know anyone that smokes weed?
me: not really any of my friends….
If you had to choose, would you rather be an alcoholic or a pothead?
me: pothead
Alcohol in the past 24 hours?
me: nope
Is the last person you kissed and the next person you’ll kiss the same?
me: unless i kiss ted for some crazy reason, no.
Do you have a YouTube account?
me: yeah, too many
What do you want for your birthday?
me: my belly button pierced, a telescope, and a clamp ear ring chain thing
Is there anyone who doesn’t like you?
me: haters keep hatin
Who did you spend your summer with last year?
me: same kids i spend all my days with now
Where did you get the pants you’re wearing?
me: hollister
Are you happy?
me: in a sense
Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
me: yeah, they are my friends lol
Is anything bothering you?
me: always unfortunately
Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed?
me: jena’s house
What is more important in a relationship, happiness or trust?
me: happiness, but if u lack trust then that happiness wont last long and the pain in the end will be worse. true story
Are you in a good mood right now?
me: bored, but yes
Do you want kids?
me: most likely
Do you think that you have made a difference in someones life?
me: YES!
Does the last person who texted you make you smile?
me: its jordan, she usually does.
Will this weekend be a good one?
me: hope so.
Are you named after anyone?
me: not at all
Have you ever caught a fish?
me: yeah, and one in the eye.
Who can make you feel better in a difficult situation?
me: friends
What color are your eyes?
me: ocean blue
Are you in a complicated relationship?
me: NOT IN RELATIONSHIP
How many hours did you sleep last night?
me: i dont know i woke up alot
Do you get drunk every weekend?
me: never
Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
me: usually do
Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself?
me: ya, i strive for that. its what i live for :)
If you had the chance to move out of your current house right now, would you?
me: depends where i’m going
Do you have any regrets?
me: maybe, i dont know. ask me later in life.
If you died, would people miss you?
me: i always wanted to know that… i dont know. id hope so.
Miss anyone right now?
a few people.
Escape, a poem written by me
life’s all about the escape
escaping pain heartache fear love and guilt
you can cut
you can trip
you can pretend or even pray
but you are still alive everyday
to deal with the pain heartache fear love and guilt
you need to fly
get high
just to manage to get by
and some may say im shy
i’m really just shattered inside
so take me away
to this so called tranquil place
where feelings become dreams
and numb becomes reality
this is the place i want to be
but i want you there with me
im broken and lost
willing to pay any cost
guilty but clean
a regret filled dream
but when i awake
im back in the god forsaken place
a nightmare at the least
life is like taming a wild beast
you need courage and power
to escape for just an hour
but to never come back
would be the most fatal task
